Fears and Goals when Volunteering in Tanzania

I think that whenever travelling to another place or diving into something new, there is great fear. Fear, however, can be overcome, and, in my opinion, makes experiences exciting and simply worth it. Without fear, one would never be humbled or taught. One would never be able to admit that they worried over the feelings of being nervous or uncomfortable. Fear reminds that we are human beings with feelings and imperfections. Admitting your fears is an opportunity to move past such feelings, conquering obstacles and developing character.

Tanzania is becoming more and more of a reality than a dream, for it is less than a week away! I have great expectations for the team going on this trip, but I also have fears. My greatest fear is disappointing Children’s Global Alliance volunteers and chaperones, along with the students we will be working with. I aim to do my volunteering to the best of my ability, but what if that doesn’t cut it? What if I don’t teach correctly and misguide the students? What if I don’t act with leadership, integrity, and grace?

These thoughts follow me as I approach the trip, but I am not willing such fears to stifle my work. I will overcome these anxious nerves. How? I will do this through analyzing my thoughts, asking myself if the thoughts are rational, self-deprecating, or true. I will empower myself to see that most of my fear is only in my head, and by working my hardest and spreading love, I am not failing nor disappointing anyone.

Along with fears, I also have goals for my time spent in Tanzania. My greatest goal is CONNECT and LEARN from the students. My goal is to open my eyes, wide, witnessing everything that goes on. I hope to experience everything to the fullest, becoming empowered. Having travelled to two other developing countries with Children’s Global Alliance, I am aware that the connections with children are rare, but are powerful and fulfilling. It is a goal of mine to act with authenticity and humility, connecting with the students in Tanzania, being their teacher, friend, and mentor. I am also going to try my best to learn and take away from every interaction, every trip to the market, and every minute spent in Tanzania. These goals are large, but I have been preparing for this trip all year and excited to push myself when volunteering in Africa.